To My Mother (New Chapter 1)
I’ve been thinking a lot about how I have treated you past/present. I know I’ve done wrong so This is for you.
I have said this word to you more than once, and that word is hate. It’s a strong word, and I didn’t even know that until I said it. But then I go back and think about it. I feel really badly about saying that to you, when I say it and I know it hurts you. It’s something a child should never say to their parent especially their first born son saying this to you. I know it pained you, that you felt like you haven’t been a good mother.
Unfortunately, I have said it to you more than once but it always just comes out of anger. I never know how to control it once it gets to a point. But you are someone who means the world to me. As much as you joked about it when I was younger, you’re the only mom I have. I didn’t think when I said it, and didn’t realize how much four letters could be so strong and hurt you. I never meant to say it, and I never want to again. I hope you take this as a sincere apology. I know I hide my feelings but we’re connected we live on the same wavelength aha, and I know I haven’t told you this in a very very long time but I love you and always will. You’re my mom a great one at that, remember that!
Sincerely Your Son,