Jealous

jealousy

I’m jealous
Of you, you, you and especially you!
I’m jealous of all of you
All of you who make life look like it’s so easy
Those of you who always seem to be happy
I’m jealous of you, who gets things handed to them on a silver platter
All of you who can get a job or walk into a store without someone judging you by your skin color
At least I can admit it, I’m jealous this is a fact
Though it pains me to say…
I’m jealous of you, who has a dream and accomplishes their goals
You who can easily find motivation and the energy to get up every single morning
Not regretting any choices you have made or will make today
I’m jealous of those of you who can actually sleep throughout the night
Without having nightmares and waking up in cold sweats all of the time
I’m jealous
You who can change, do something, be someone
Those of you who were given a chance
I’m fighting every single day, every single day! For what?
Just to sit here and feel like my life amounts to nothing!
I’m jealous of those of you that have fallen but get back up again
Jealous of those of you who don’t have to work hard to get what they want
Those of you who get into relationships halfheartedly never putting anything into it
I’m jealous of you, who can love yourself so effortlessly and selfishly
Not because I can, but because I can’t
I want to be somebody! I want to do something! I want a chance!
Look at me! Look me in the eyes and say I’m the one. Choose me!
I’m jealous
I don’t want your fame or your fortune
I don’t want your happiness
I don’t want your privileges
I just want to be acknowledged
I’m jealous of every person that gets your attention that isn’t me
Those of you who don’t know what it feels like to be left out
To be abandoned, forgotten and unnoticed
I’m jealous of you, who isn’t lost
This jealousy eats away at my heart
Eats away at my skin and
My soul

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About Jullian Autry

When I set my heart on something, I give it my all. That's why I decided to blog.I am going to share my story with everyone I want to show you all who I am, my life,dreams and aspirations. I hope that my post, my story and inspiring/motivational words will be inspirational to you and motivate you to be the best you can be. I wish your dreams and potential to be born into life through my writing. Everyone is more than welcome to comment and share their opinions. I encourage it.

Posted on March 10, 2014, in Personal, Poetry, Regret and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 7 Comments.

  1. Great writing Juulz!
    I am jealous of your talent! 😉
    Hugz ♥

  2. Sometimes peoples ‘outsides’ don’t reflect their ‘insides.’ You can have the world and still be completely miserable!

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