I Pretend


I pretend that I’m okay
When I’m really dying on the inside
I pretend that my demons are at bay
When I know they still reside

I pretend that I’m still standing strong
When I’m really on my last life
I pretend that nothing has gone wrong
When I know deep down my heart is at strife

I pretend I have power to change
When I know my will is weak
I pretend I am not strange
When I know that I’m really a freak

I pretend that I know it all
When I really don’t know a thing
I pretend that I can knockdown the wall
When I don’t have the energy to swing

I pretend I always will have a friend
When I’m really all alone
I pretend my heartache will end
When I really can’t atone

I pretend I can be anything
When I can’t even come to terms with the present
I pretend I am the greatest king
When I’m nothing but a lowly peasant

I pretend that I’m not lost
When I’m waiting to be found
I pretend you won’t have to pay the cost
When I know you’ll never be around

I pretend that my heart isn’t crying
When I know it’s about to burst
I pretend I’m not slowly dying
When I know that I’m cursed

I pretend I can go anywhere
When I know I’m stuck here with me
I pretend no one can compare
When I know I’m the one noone can see


About Jullian Autry

When I set my heart on something, I give it my all. That's why I decided to blog.I am going to share my story with everyone I want to show you all who I am, my life,dreams and aspirations. I hope that my post, my story and inspiring/motivational words will be inspirational to you and motivate you to be the best you can be. I wish your dreams and potential to be born into life through my writing. Everyone is more than welcome to comment and share their opinions. I encourage it.

Posted on September 12, 2014, in Poetry. Bookmark the permalink. 10 Comments.

  1. One baby step at a time towards healing. Please see my post today. I encourage you to do so. May this post touch your Heart deeply where the Light is most needed to bring you Healing. Love, Amy

  2. Julian, Well written!!!!!!!!! Keep talking to Patty…She’s been there!!!!!!!! Phil

  3. I can always relate to your poems Juilian… It’s like everything I feel like you put it in words. Perfect !

  4. I have found that pretending is just the prescription to rebalance. Nice to meet you. Sorry for the advice, I just… know this pain. I hope you don’t mind.

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