Too Much Of A Good Thing

I don’t want this to become a memory
Though I feel I’m continuing  to waste this energy
Thinking to myself that one day you’ll care
Not looking forward to tomorrow because you’ll never be there
You never miss a good thing till it leaves you
In your mind you’re thinking what can I do?
I’ve given my all…everything I am
Just to be sitting here looking pitiful like damn..
I really thought you would see my feelings were true
Now you’ve moved on.. acting brand new
This was my last chance to show you my love
I might need a little help from above
But was this really a good fit?
I’m thinking to myself was it really worth it?
I don’t know the thoughts that go through your mind
Maybe our paths weren’t really aligned
I guess this really is the end now
Though it’s not something I want to allow
I have no more fight, I’m leaving the boxing ring
This was all too much of a good thing

Never Saw You Coming

I wish I didn’t feel the way I do
I wish I never fell in love with you
I wish I didn’t stay up all night crying
I wish I knew when to stop trying
It’s just that you hurt me so bad
You made me believe in something I never had
Then you used that to destroy me
It’s my fault, I’m the one who gave you the key
My heart has never been so pained
My heart is now forever stained
I wish I could just hate you
I wish I could show you what I’ve gone through
I wish you could understand
I wish you knew that me falling for you wasn’t planned
I guess now you never will
What you did to me takes some kind of skill
To throw away something as precious as a heart
Didn’t anyone ever tell you growing up that isn’t smart?
I guess you weren’t ready to embark on this endeavor
You’ll just have to live with that forever
I wish that breaking a heart was a crime
I wish I could turn back time
I wish my love meant something
I wish I had seen you coming

Just Yesterday

Just yesterday
We were in love
Everything was perfect
Never again
Why did you leave me?
Because I wanted you

Just yesterday
We were in each others arms
Why should we break up?
Am I a fool?
I fell in love
Because I trusted you

Just yesterday
We were holding hands
Everything felt right
Does it have to be this way?
There’s no going back
Because I loved you

Just yesterday
We were smiling
You promised me
This is so hard
Why are we separating?
Because I need you

Just yesterday
We were happy
Heart, I’m sorry
I’m holding my tears in
Because I missed you
Just yesterday…
Just yesterday…

The Kill – Song Of The Day

Drift Away

I want to just drift away
Save all this drama for another day
Ignore all these bills I have to pay
And just silently drift away
Maybe somewhere on a beach by the bay
Maybe on a farm in the hay
Lurking, silently drifting away
I’ll just run away on Santa’s sleigh
To a place where my skies are never gray
Why won’t you let me drift away?
I just want to have fun, I just want to play
Go back? Ha! That’s something I’ll never say
I don’t want to leave, just want to drift away
It’s time to get started no need for anymore delay
My reasoning may be simple or even cliche
But deep down inside I just want to drift away

Tears Won’t Flow

I just want to cry
I keep asking myself why
I’ve lost all control
I’ve lost all of my soul
I thought this was something I could do
Then I messed up and now I’m feeling blue
I thought I could stand up and fight
Now I know my actions weren’t right
How can I learn to grow
When my tears just won’t flow

Happiness

I am always striving to be happy
Why are there so many things trying to take that from me?
I’m working hard to do the best I can, can’t you see?
Why am I always depressed, why can’t I keep a smile on my face?
Is it because I wear my heart on my sleeve? It’s so quick to chase
Damnit I want to be happy, I also want to have fun
Why did you take it away, why did you take away my sun?
Everytime I take one step forward, I take two steps back
I don’t know about you but this whole concept to me seems whack
I wish I knew the answer I wish I was a bit more brave
Right now I feel like I’m digging myself into an early grave
What is happiness?

NaPoWriMo Day 25