Happy Birthday to ME!

So today is my birthday! Yes, It’s my “Golden Year” as they say, turning 23 on the 23rd! Woot woot! 23 years ago today I was born into this crazy, gruesome yet satisfying world. I’ve made it another year and I am pleased to say I’m proud! I’ve had my ups and downs just like everyone else, I might not go through the same exact things you have, I might not have felt the same pains you have felt. I do feel like I am at a part in my life where even though I walk a different path, I understand where you’re coming from. I have come a long way, if you look at how I used to be in high school etc.

A year ago today, I believe I was working for the Holiday Inn as a shuttle driver. I had a pretty flexible job but the environment wasn’t right for me. I also had who I’d thought at the time to be one of the best girlfriends ever! I didn’t really have much else going for me, I didn’t really hang out with friends, I didn’t go on any trips, I didn’t do anything! Then you look at where I am now though I may be single, 3months ago I bought a “new” car (2008), better than the one I was driving, I’ve kept a steady job that I got a permanent position in and I also enjoy very much and as of Monday (10/21) I moved into my first  2 bdrm apartment! My roommate is awesome I love her to death, I’m going to my first concert this weekend (Paramour)! I really don’t see how my path hasn’t been the right one for me, it’s great.

If you know me, you know that I never ask for presents. I never ask for anything really for my birthday. Any presents I do receive I always cherish them no matter how large or small it is, it means everything to me. I’m glad to have lived another year to celebrate the day I was born. I’m thankful that I am still alive today, some years ago, to be honest some months ago I wasn’t in the right state of mind and I actually believed it would be better if I wasn’t in this world any longer. I’m proud to say I no longer feel that way, I love my life and everyone in it. Thank you all for being a part of my life, and sticking with me if not for all for some of the 23 years I have lived. Here’s to 23 more years!

-Jullian

Daily Prompt: Community Service

Daily Prompt: Community Service

Your entire community — however you define that; your hometown, your neighborhood, your family, your colleagues — is guaranteed to read your blog tomorrow. Write the post you’d like them all to see.

If you Knew me Now

If you knew me now, you’d know I’ve changed

If you knew me now, you’d see me differently

I’m not the same person I used to be

I’m not same person you thought you would see

I’ve found myself, I know who I am now

If you knew me now, you’d say I am awersome

If you knew me now, you’d say I was still weird

Or maybe not, I’d still think I know who I am

If you knew me now, you’d say I’ve grown

If you knew me now, you’d see I’m happy

I fight for what I want

I don’t give up easily

If you knew me now, I’d still do all I can to make you smile

If you knew me now, maybe you’d stay for a little while

Though I am stubborn

My will is strong

If you knew me now

If only you knew me now

-Jullian

Read other awesome bloggers post:

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3. Daily Prompt: Community Service | Under the Monkey Tree
4. Do you wanna join my Community? | મન ની વાત
5. Daily Prompt: Community Service | iChristian
6. Pick one and go with it… | thoughtsofrkh
7. community | yi-ching lin photography
8. Community | Motherhood and Beyond
9. Fungus High-Rise (Community: Daily Prompt) | photo potpourri
10. In a Forest Bungalow | crookedeyebrows
11. You don’t look the type… | alienorajt
12. Hood Chick [Daily Prompt: Community Service] | unknowinglee
13. Making A Grand Exit ~> ROAR | Spirit Lights The Way
14. PRACTICE KINDNESS | Emotional Fitness
15. And I Have Hope | The Jittery Goat
16. Community Awareness: Share the road and enjoy the ride | aaroneharris
17. Daily Prompt: The Goodbye I Never Said | Awl and Scribe
18. 200. Community Service Announcement | Barely Right of Center
19. The Rider
20. Confessions from the Cracked Pot (Part 2) | JC Bride ~
21. Daily Prompt: Community Service | Purple Rosemary
22. Community #photography #poetry | Moondustwriter’s Blog
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25. Lets build a community! | Random Encounters of an Inquisitive Mind
26. Mr. Fusion and the Excruciatingly Slow Decline of the Western Pattern Diet | Rob’s Surf Report
27. Daily Prompt: Community Service | Chronicles of an Anglo Swiss
28. Daily Prompt: Community Service | My Atheist Blog
29. And you thought you knew me… | Life as a country bumpkin…not a city girl
30. Community Service- I am what I am | ashwitaashok
31. Community: What is your defining moment? | jennifermarshcurtis
32. Daily Prompt: Community Service | lifebeinggirly

 

 

30 Day Blog Challenge – Your Current Relationship

30 Day Blog Challenge 1

Your Current Relationship

Of course there are many women out there that I have crushes on. There are also some from my past who I will always have feelings for, but at this moment I’m just focusing on me and my life. My current relationship at this point in time is undisclosed classified information.  I will never tell you if I’m single nor will I tell you if I’m in a relationship until I am fully aware myself what is going on in my life. I am forever always working on bettering myself so when or if that person came/comes along that I will be ready for it.

-Jullian

 

Daily Prompt: Exhale

Daily Prompt: Exhale

Tell us about a time when everything seemed to be going wrong — and then, suddenly, you knew it would be alright.

I told you how it was going to be

You obviously just didn’t have any trust in me

You pushed, you shoved me from your life

You lied, you cheated but karma will come back for you twice

I gave, I poured my heart out to you

In the end it really was your loss

It’s fine, It’s cool I can finally breathe now

I see what couldn’t been seen before

Things, Life, Choices that have been in front of me this whole time

Makes me wonder how I got so blind

Things are going really well for me

Just how I told you it would be

You missed out, your loss, you’re shit outta luck

It’s all good, I can finally breathe now

I breathe in,exhale, take it one day at a time

But I know now it’ll all be fine

 

-Jullian

 

Other Daily Prompts:

1. The 5th Peking to Paris Motor Challenge 2013. 1939 – Packard Six 1700 | Village & Countryside Tourism
2. First Experience of an American in a Russian Banya | Философские заметки Алексея Марковича
3. Safety | The Magic Black Book
4. ¿Come se dice “kickass” en español? | Butterfly Mind
5. Social media stalker | Short Stories & Poems
6. Nobody But You – Charles Bukowski | NU VORBI, SCRIE!
7. The Haunt of Red October | Beth Byrnes
8. Daily Prompt: Exhale 7.10 | Family, Photos, Food & Craft
9. Alright Now – Exhale! | The Ambitious Drifter
10. Daily Prompt: Exhale | Under the Monkey Tree
11. Waiting to exhale? « RPMAS
12. Breathe, Just Breathe | Dear Yolandi
13. Faith | Eikons
14. we make our way | y
15. EXHALE | Life Confusions
16. Battlefield of Hope? | alienorajt
17. 192. Waiting to Exhale | Barely Right of Center
18. At the feet of the Mystic Mountain – Kailash (Part 2) | Life is a Vacation
19. Job Interview | I’m just Super Saiyan
20. ⊱◦ exђale ◦⊰ | The RunningFather Blog
21. Exhale, but remember to breathe in first! | Hope* the happy hugger
22. How To Save a Life | Just Visiting This Planet
23. Something I don’t want to talk about | walkin’ on sunshine
24. Sometimes An Enemy Is Better Than A Friend | The Jittery Goat
25. My five day rental period. | thoughtsofrkh
26. Daily Prompt: Exhale | The Temenos Journal
27. Randomness Expressed
28. Daily Prompt: Exhale « Mama Bear Musings
29. Purchasing a cabin in The Great Smoky Mountains | Nothin’ But Views
30. MISSED FLIGHT CONNECTION! | Angela McCauley
31. Safety First… Cricket not always a gentleman’s game! | The Rider
32. Making Lemonade when Life Throws Lemons | Kansa Muse on Micro Farming and More
33. Daily Prompt: Exhale – Story/Poem – Rainy Day | I Hope You’re Taking Notes
34. Daily Prompt: Exhale | Awl and Scribe

Weekly Writing Challenge: Dialogue – The End Of Something Special

We’re both standing there with a blank look on our faces. “Hi” she said. He looks into her eyes, braced himself. Something was wrong. “Hey,” he replied. She walks up to him and reaches out her hand. “I think we need to talk” she said. He  looks down at his shoes, trying to hide away the emotions. “What is there to say?” he replied. There was a pause, he looks up at her again and all he could do is stare. There are thousands of things going through his mind right now, he doesn’t know what move to make next. He grabs her hand and asked “Do you really want to do this here?” She replies “Okay”.

It’s was nice day out, so they decided to head to a park nearby and they begin to walk. He could already tell she was about to cry, he hated seeing her cry. He thinks to himself “How did I let this happen?” , “How did it get to this point?”. They’re walking hand in hand neither of them making a sound, they find a bench on the way and decide to take a seat. “What is it that you wanted to talk about?” he asked, with a worried look on his face. She responds quickly, “I think I’ve fallen out of love with you”. There’s a shocked look on his face, this totally blindsided him. He thought things were going well, he thought he was being good to her. Apparently he though wrong. “Is it me?” he asked. The tone in his voice is increasing, you can tell that he is gravely hurt by her words. ” I…I..I didn’t intend to hurt you” she said. He panics and then quickly gets up, he’s pacing back and forth. She’s watching him with a scared look on her face, she says “Baby, please don’t do anything stupid.” she continues with “It’s just not our time now, but maybe in the future it will…” He stops her and grabs her close, he asks “Why are you doing this to me?” “What have I done wrong?” She sits there staring at him, looking like a scared puppy. He notices she’s about to cry, “I’m sorry” he says quickly to try and prevent the tears from falling. He could already tell it was too late, that his actions at that moment hurt her just as much as her words hurt him. He was confused, out of place, off-balance and he felt he just needed to get away.

At this point there was no hope of saving what once was, and they both knew that their special time together was coming to an end. As they both start walking again hand in hand she says “This is the hardest goodbye that I’ve ever had to do.” He just keeps walking with her trying not to cry and enjoying his last moments with his lover. They are now at the point where they have to go their separate ways, he hugs her tightly. “You know you don’t have to do this.” he implies. “It just doesn’t feel the same anymore.” she responded. “If that’s how you feel, then I suppose it can’t be helped.” He slowly starts letting go of her, kisses her on the forehead, turns and walks away. As he walks away tears start falling from his eyes, he doesn’t look back because he doesn’t want her to see him cry. Deep down in his heart he knows this was the end of something special.

This is my first Weekly Writing Challenge and my first attempt at using Dialogue in my writing. Thank you for taking the time out of your day, comments are welcomed.

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15. The Lost Letter #dailypost #history #poetry #photography | Moondustwriter’s Blog
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17. Flirtation – not everyone gets it | mostlytrueramblings
18. Weekly Writing Challenge: Dialogue. | Nomad Scribbles
19. Weekly Writing Challenge: Dialogue – Country Tale | SERENDIPITY
20. Incomplete | For the love of sharing awesomeness
21. Mastering the Kama… eh, whatever | Not the fat kid in gym class anymore…
22. Weekly Writing Challenge: Dialogue – The End Of Something Special | The Story of a Guy
23. Name tags | Mark Evans
24. The Pyjama Girl. | Janey Macken Street!
25. Killing the cobbler | James Clegg
26. Anne of Clean Tables: How a famous writer encouraged a wanna-be writer to write, right. | I am not what I am.
27. Weekly Writing Challenge: Dialogue – Peace Wall | Nomadic Gregoires
28. Tell me how it is, Doc. | Anthony’s Heart Valve Replacement Saga
29. Two way communication | Le Drake Noir
30. Breaking News | 2twistedforcolortv
31. WWC: The Oppressor | Kingdom of Sharks
32. Jabberwocky: Dialogue With Attitude… | alienorajt
33. Of Schnoodles and Twerking | Farfetched Friends
34. The Bullet (# 2) | Rolbos ©
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36. Everyone, meet Mandy! | My August Hands
37. The hardest word | Fifty Words a Day
38. Weekly Writing Challenge: Dialogue. About goats. | Geography: It’s Awesome
39. Hourglass | raggykate
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42. WP20: Body and Soul | My Amphitheater
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44. Weekly Writing Challenge: Frozen in TIme | Inspire
45. Moving on | Spinning a Yarn~~
46. The innocent question… | gaurimaini
47. DPchallenge – Dramione fanfic (an original of mine) | Body, Mind, & Soul
48. DPchallenge – Dramione original | Body, Mind, & Soul
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50. Myself and the little voices in my head discuss an article on ‘Working Mothers’… | 3rdculturechildren
51. After Life | Confused Humanity
52. I will not hold your hand, nor will I hide. | Write in the Wrong Way
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56. Khalin Kros – Weekly Writing Challenge: Dialogue | Just Keep Swimming
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Nobody’s Perfect

You know they say that nobody is perfect, that is true with everything in our world. Nothing is perfect, no one person is perfect. When it comes to love that rule is one of the most important to remember. You can’t have a relationship with someone and expect the world from them and to expect that they are everything you’ve ever wanted. More than likely they aren’t. Everyone will have something you dislike about them or something that annoys you, there is no doubt about that. So then comes the question, what should love be and feel like? Or how should a relationship work? Love should feel like a clear night. A slight breeze reminds you of the unknown as you look up at sparkling stars and unending darkness. You’ll realize every answer is really a guess and every fact was once fiction and that you are just beginning to learn about love, along with everyone else.

I’ve said this before but love shouldn’t be with someone who “completes” you. It should be with someone who is good alone, whole alone but together you would be better. That is what I believe , it should be between two individual selves coming together. You should always be building each other up, it should not be anyone giving everything to the other it should always be two giving each other an equal amount. Picture love this way, you are a glass full of water. Then you meet another glass who is also full with water. You hit it off and decide to make things serious, those two glasses do not become one. What should happen is that you should be pouring some of your own water into the others glass while they are giving an equal amount back until you both are mixed well together.

The problem with most relationships is that one glass is pouring everything they have into the other glass, overflowing it, getting no water in return until it’s empty. A relationship cannot work that way. Love should feel easy, it should just flow, nothing is being forced, nothing is being forged. The solution? Be with someone who is real, who is genuine and who wants the same thing you want out of the relationship. Otherwise you will forever be a empty cup, losing yourself a little bit more each time you give your heart away. Be yourself, the right person will come at the right time. The more you try to force someone to love you the more you will feel like nothing and the more you will lose in the long run.

I know I’m no love expert and I’m not pretending to be, I just wanted to give you my views on what love should be. Have a great day! Remember You’re Beautiful, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.

 

-Jullian

 

 

 

Regrets, I’ve had a few: Where Do I Belong?

Daily Prompt: Regrets, I’ve had a few

What’s your biggest regret? How would your life have been different if you’d made another decision?

Where do I belong?

Do I belong here?

Do I belong there?

I feel like I don’t belong anywhere

I regret not stepping out of my shell

I regret and now all I do is dwell

Dwell on the past of the chances I didn’t take

Torn by these feelings I just couldn’t shake

My mistake was being scared of what if

Deep down inside I knew it was all a myth

Still I let that hold me back

Why? Why didn’t I just let my shell crack

I regret what I could’ve done everyday

Now I’m not scared to let my heart sway

Until I find somewhere that I belong

I’ll just have to patiently wait here and stay strong

-Jullian

Others Regrets:

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2. The Living Eulogy Experiment | contrailsonmyheart
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4. The last time I lied | Miss Moiety
5. Regrets: Repost and Share | J. M. Tompkins
6. Who Are These People? | Conversations
7. Regrets, I’ve Had a Few | Geek Ergo Sum
8. Well you don’t know till you try, right? | thoughtsofrkh
9. What I was and what I am | Right Down My Alley
10. Two Wolves | Spirit Lights The Way
11. Daily Prompt: Regrets, I’ve Had a Few – I miss you FeeFee | littlegirlstory
12. Daily Prompt: Regrets, I’ve Had a Few | Under the Monkey Tree
13. Regrets: I’ve had a few – The mistake which changed my life.. | storyofmylife1993
14. A Train Named “Regret” | The Jittery Goat
15. Daily Prompt:Regrets,I’ve Had a Few | Motherhood and Beyond
16. Turning to life or death? Regrets… | alienorajt
17. Art Institute Woes… | Eyes Through The Glass – A Blog About Asperger’s
18. A bittersweet thank you – a letter | walkin’ on sunshine
19. Regrets (Huitain) | Liars, Hypocrites & The Development of Human Emotion
20. About My Dog | Anchors Aweigh
21. Daily Prompt: Turning Point | Books, Music, Photography & Movies : my best friends
22. Daily Prompt: Non, je ne regrette rien … Well, not much, anyhow | SERENDIPITY
23. Daily Prompt: Regrets, I’ve Had a Few « Mama Bear Musings
24. Regrets, I’ve had a few: Where Do I Belong? | The Story of a Guy
25. Regrets? « RPMAS
26. Regrets, I’ve had Few | Flowers and Breezes
27. Daily Prompt: Regrets, I’ve Had a Few | On My Front Porch
28. The Road I Should Have Taken | Creative Mysteries
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